Saying goodbye

So yesterday I attended the funeral of a truly amazing woman for who life got too complicated.
Louise Amanda Jayne was 43 and simply incredible, all who knew her were blessed and that became abundantly clear during the beautiful service celebrating her life. Her fellow police department appeared in full uniform lining the aisle down which her coffin was carried. See for her it was not enough to just be an astonishing mother, sister, daughter and friend she also served society in her many years as a policewoman moving from a special up to sergeant. She never stopped giving in all aspects of life and crammed such a lot into her 43 years!
But for me she was more than just a friend, she was a completely non judgemental voice of reason who has talked me round from feeling suicidal on multiple occasions. She restored my faith in the British police force and with her help I was able to go and report the crimes against me- my biggest achievement so far as far as progress goes. Without her I would never have even considering going to the police and now I have I can honestly say that my confidence has improved like 1000 times as for the first time in nearly 10 years I can say “I am not at fault, I am not a bad person”. I don’t have the words to describe how much this and all of her other undwindling support means. I will always carry a part of this amazing woman with me in the hope that one day I will be able to become half the woman she was and is.
Louise I cannot express my sadness at the fact that your pain was too great to bear, I can only express my wish that you are in a better place now- at peace. I love you Lou now and forever sleep well angel ❤


One thought on “Saying goodbye

  1. headgamesptsd

    It’s always hard to say goodbye, you have said it beautifully here. Thank you for sharing this.


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